Reality bites 9 July 2009

Things may have changed. I just don't know how to put it across.

Is it alright for me to feel... happy? Just a tad? I fear that joy brings with it uncertainties, or even worries. I'm a great fan of happiness, I swear, but sometimes, just the thought of being happy can bring you uneasiness.

Lately, I've been trying to think of plans for the upcoming months. Maybe I could do this, or that; perhaps it was time for me to try something else. But hey, as reality came crashing down, I realised it was just all my dreams. All of a sudden, it was time for this test, that meeting, or some other events. That's just the tip of the iceberg.

If time could reverse, and I seriously hope that it can, I would certainly skip some parts of my life. Not happy with this? Just skip it. But it's reality after all, you gotta face everything. The happy ones, the scary ones. Perhaps that's why we age quickly- we go through so much and then life just ends at some point.

And you realise, there's still something I haven't done.

On a lighter note, it's Dad's birthday. So happy birthday old daddy! You've grown another year older, and hope that as the years go by, when you look back in life, you'll feel blessed you have a happy family that's right beside you.

Cheers!

This is for you. Only you. 8 July 2009

Darling piggy:

Know that as you read this, every inch of me yearns for you. I miss those days in China when I could snuggle up to you and make myself feel so comfy and warm. Long gone are those days. These days, I wake up empty-hearted, like I'm in a hollow.

I know I'm nothing great. I'm scared of stuff, maybe stuff that others won't be afraid of. Perhaps it's my flaw, but I ask for your forgiveness. No matter what, the sound of your voice gives me great comfort, and makes me ready to embrace the uncertainties facing me.

So I thank you. But more importantly, I love you. Till this day, I've never regretted knowing you and being with you. I ask for nothing but your love, because it's about the only thing keeping me on now.

You are the fire that's keeping the pile of wood burning.

From,
a passenger alighting at the station of the future. :)

Life post 7 July 2009

If life were ever anything, it would be a book. It sucks you in, and you never get out.
Sometimes I hope I get a break from all this, sometimes I hope I could choose what was in store for me instead of letting GOD deal you the cards.

If I could choose, I would have another semester of studies. I would not come back so fast, a tad too early. I would choose to continue the moments of joy, to freeze and replay it, again and again. Those would be my only wishes.

I'm back in Singapore, and that's that. The last semester is approaching and I've no idea what's really gonna happen during this time. I pray it's gonna be just what I want it to be- maybe eventful, but no trouble.

Say yes to the chimes of time,
let these words now bear the grime.
Bring me forth and send me back,
let time heal whatever's a shack.